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09 April 2008 @ 01:25 pm
Of taxes and jewelry and birthdays  
Wow, it's been a busy couple of days. Yesterday I had the three hour meeting from hell at work, followed by a bunch of time spent securing Mark's plane ticket to Japan this year. We're paying about what we did last year, which considering gas prices, I suppose we should be grateful for. It still seems like a LOT, though.

Today, I got to spend my entire morning on taxes. Not exactly the happiest thing to do on one's birthday, but I have no one but myself to blame. I'm still waiting for the phone call from our tax lady telling me the bad news what we'll owe to the Feds vs. what we'll get back from State. With any luck at all, we'll come close to breaking even. *hopes*

I've had a little time to do some jewelry the last few days, but I've had to devote most of that to preparing for the class i'll be teaching this weekend. Still, I'm going to start a "period piece" line of jewelry, for which I'll be making designs for modern day wear based on historical fashions. The first is Regency styled, and I've called the necklace 'Jane' (in honor of Jane Austen, of course!) During the Regency period, girls wore a lot of simple pendants like crosses, either on chains or ribbon chokers, and they also wore a lot of pearls for dressier occasions. Pearls were an extremely popular gemstone of the era.

I paired 8-9mm freshwater pearls with amethyst here, and I like the result quite a lot, so much so that I plan to make some matching earrings tonight. More info and pics at my Etsy store, as per usual.

So, I'm another year older. Maybe I should warn you all, there's a bit of a pity party ahead. Feel free to skip the rest of this entry.

I was not excited about my birthday at all this year. In fact, I found myself trying to forget I was even having one. I am not one who tends to freak out about this whole growing older thing, but this year I admit I've experienced some pretty down moments with regards to turning 34. I think it mostly has to do with the whole early ovarian failure (aka premature menopause) thing. Mark and I started trying to have kids two and a half years ago. I catch myself thinking things like "So now I'm 34. I only have six more years until I'm 40." And then I start thinking about the whole donor egg scenario, and asking myself the hard questions that I don't have answers for yet. Like how are we really going to pay for this if I decide I really can't live out my life without having kids. And if I am really okay with the idea of using some stranger's egg if my sister decides against donating one of hers. (She seems to be leaning that direction.) And even if I am, Mark gets a vote, too, and he is not at all sure about that.

I don't know. Sometimes I still catch myself asking God for a miracle here.

So then, to try and get my mind away from the whole 34-and-still-childless thing, I turn to the other fulfilling things in my life - writing, namely. And even though I've had a lot of personal successes lately (I have never been happier with what I've produced as a writer than I am with the current WIP, and the previously completed novel.) I can't help but think "Oh, great. another year gone by without landing an agent, much less getting something published."

You see how this isn't so cheerful, right? It could be worse, I suppose. I could still be in this same situation when 35 hits. Meanwhile, the best way to keep that from happening is to grit my teeth and make the appointment with the donor specialist, and to keep writing and submitting queries. And to just enjoy the damn birthday cake tonight.

So i'm off to work on the WIP for a couple of hours. Nothing like some angsty and hot telepathic space pirates to cheer a birthday girl's heart. :-)
Current Mood: indescribableindescribable
-peartreealley on April 9th, 2008 08:31 pm (UTC)
The necklace is very pretty!

You have my sympathies of the child situation, and my empathy on this part:

I can't help but think "Oh, great. another year gone by without landing an agent, much less getting something published."

But you're right. All we can do is keep trying. *hugs*

Enjoy your birthday with your sexy space pirates :D
shellyinseattleshellyinseattle on April 9th, 2008 08:37 pm (UTC)
Happy birthday and best wishes from me, too.

I hope this year everything smooths out for you for both the small things, like making beautiful necklaces like this one and the larger things like the child question.
rhienellethrhienelleth on April 9th, 2008 11:03 pm (UTC)
Thanks, I hope so, too. I keep telling myself 2008 has to be better than 2007. So far, it is in smaller ways, at least.
rhienellethrhienelleth on April 9th, 2008 11:04 pm (UTC)
Heh. :) Writing really does make everything better. It's helped me put my funk behind me this afternoon.
(Anonymous) on April 9th, 2008 08:42 pm (UTC)
celli on April 9th, 2008 08:42 pm (UTC)
Whoops, that was me.

*more hugs*
rhienelleth: zoe/wash - shayrenarhienelleth on April 9th, 2008 11:03 pm (UTC)
Hee - I had a suspicion it was. :-) Thanks.
"Connoisseurs of Difficulty": Girl Talkkistha on April 9th, 2008 09:20 pm (UTC)
I know how you feel - we're sort of in the same boat, and my husband who's older occupies the writer-ly half.

I felt exceptionally crappy about my birthday this year as well - and then the day turned into a nightmare on top of it.

I hope you get some good birthday-ness even if you don't think you want any. Trust me, better that than shitty caucusing and a dinner party that's all not about you. :)

You have my sympathy and my love
rhienelleth: zoe/wash - shayrenarhienelleth on April 9th, 2008 11:02 pm (UTC)
I know how you feel

I know you do, sweetie. {{HUGS}} you.

No dinner parties in my near future, so perhaps I am safe!
Miss Crankypants: Misc Birthday Wishesaka_paloma on April 9th, 2008 10:02 pm (UTC)
Well, despite the lack of enthusiam on your part, I would still like to wish you a HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

Maybe the Tax Lady will call with good news? I'll cross my fingers for you. And as for the writing thing, there is no time limit on that. Personally, I think 34 is still young in that respect. I wouldn't start panicking until you're at least, oh...40. I speak from experience here. *panics* ;)

If it's any consolation, I think your jewelry is amazing and those students are lucky to have you as their instructor. I've been browsing around lately at the jewelry counters and stores and all the stuff I've seen pales in comparison to your designs. I often find myself thinking as I browse: "Oh, please! Rhienn's stuff is so much better!"

I really am sorry about all the stuff that's getting you down today, so I not only wish you a tasty cake, but many, many, many big hugs. I hope you feel better soon. :)
rhienellethrhienelleth on April 9th, 2008 11:01 pm (UTC)
THANK-YOU! This had the effect of cheering me up and almost making me cry (in a good way). {{HUGS}} you.
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rhienelleth: phoenix - forthegenuinerhienelleth on April 9th, 2008 10:59 pm (UTC)
Re: Have a Happy Birthday!

It does seem we have several interests in common, or the important ones, at any rate! I've been intrigued by your superhero-themed romance since the first mention of it on fangsfurfey, and I stumbled across mention of it again today (on your agent's profile at agentquery), which reminded me I wanted to friend you. :-)

What time on Friday, or is it all day?
rhienellethrhienelleth on April 9th, 2008 11:06 pm (UTC)
Re: Have a Happy Birthday!
Er...also, I promise most of my posts are not as maudlin/pity party as this one.
J.K.Richárd: digital alchemistneutronjockey on April 9th, 2008 11:22 pm (UTC)
Hey half-cup-empty-girl, Happy Birthday!

I thought about buying the lottery ticket everytime I send in a submission--- double my chances of something happening ?! ;)
rhienellethrhienelleth on April 9th, 2008 11:27 pm (UTC)
LMAO - you have the best sense of humor, I love it! I was being glass half empty, wasn't I? I called it "self pity, part of one". But I'm better now. :) Thanks for the B-day wishes.

I thought about buying the lottery ticket everytime I send in a submission--- double my chances of something happening ?! ;)

This is both funny, and I think - possibly - a GOOD IDEA! Heck, if nothing else, the chances of being accepted are better than winning with that ticket, right? Well, we hope. ;-P
oppa hates you: AD: goodforyou: imadesomeshitmnemo_syne on April 9th, 2008 11:53 pm (UTC)
Happy Birthday! Even though birthdays suck! (in my opinion)