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09 September 2009 @ 11:38 am
I think maybe I am working too hard. What with revising Nemesis, the day job, my jewelry making (which has been frustrating of late), and my new, recent forays into canning (peaches are done, thank God), I've been really, really tired lately.

The other night after canning peaches, I actually had some pretty serious vertigo as I was going to bed. Nothing like having the spins as you lay there, after having drank exactly zero alcohol!

And today I finally finished the chapter that's been plaguing me on Nemesis, but instead of YAY! all I feel is sort of blah and depressed for no real reason that has anything to do with writing. I'm happy with the chapter, or happy enough until editing time.

I don't know. I'm also wondering if some of this fatigue and mood depression has a little to do with the new addition to the family. Don't get me wrong. I'm really excited about being an Auntie. But Mark thinks maybe I'm also struggling with it more than I think I am, emotionally speaking. I don't look at little Rosalia and think "Wow, I wish she were mine." At all. I'm really, really happy for my sister. But Mark is fairly intuitive, and he knows me pretty darn well.

I don't know what else to say about that, really. Thinking about it just seems to make me sad.
Current Mood: sadsad
kistha on September 9th, 2009 11:42 pm (UTC)
Hugs and loves...

And cute fuzzes.
Steph: spn sam deanstephdub on September 9th, 2009 11:46 pm (UTC)

I think it's perfectly natural to be a bit down about your sister having a kid. Just try not to beat yourself up about NOT being 100% happy. You're allowed to feel sad. And keeping busy is probably a good thing, and it sounds like you're doing it in spades. I'd love to see some new pictures of the jewelry you've been making if you've got them.
Patron Saint of Pessimism: Dogs: Deuce smilingwoodrunner on September 10th, 2009 12:34 am (UTC)


There's more where that came from.

There's nothing wrong with how you feel, however you feel, and for whatever reason that you feel that way. And if you need an ear to bend, you know where to find me (and I'm sure I'm somewhere in the line-up of people who would volunteer for that job).

celli on September 10th, 2009 12:35 am (UTC)
*hugs* ILU.
xlanaxlana on September 10th, 2009 04:50 am (UTC)
*hugs and cuddles* and a big cuppa.